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I’ve been absent for a while and I apologize.  My Queen decided we were moving and after we talked about it, I embraced the change.  So for the last 6 weeks I have been feverishly purging and packing.  We took down most of our paintings/pictures from the walls, so I had small holes all over the place to patch and paint.  I’ve filled a storage unit 15 X 10 X 9 and given furniture and clothes to charities.  I’ve also purged a lot of other things.  So it’s been a busy time.  With all the turmoil in the world, it looks like it will take some time to sell our place, but with all the changes it’s almost like living in a new place anyways… lol

However after our Femdom marriage, we returned home to pack for a vacation in the sunny south.  I had booked a 10 day vacation at Hedonism in Jamaica.  We had never been, but it seemed a place we might be able to relax and unwind at.  I’m not exactly sure what we expected but likely we expected to see sexual acts happening as we arrived.  Instead, we were warmly greeted by the desk staff and after getting the lowdown were escorted to our room.  Hedo is a small resort.  Regardless of where your room is located, you are never far from anywhere.  On arrival we unpacked and went on an easy explore.  After this, we went down to the beach.  My Queen had decided in advance that she would not be going nude.  So she went topless that first time at the beach.  I went naked and realized a fantasy of mine–being naked and caged on a public beach.  While I did get some looks, no one said anything to either of us.  After a short time, my Queen decided to go fully nude and that’s the way she went the remainder of our stay.  After a while we returned to our room and cleaned up for dinner.  Hedo has theme nights and return guests are well aware of them often packing a particular outfit for each theme.  We weren’t in the know before we went so we sort of made it up on the go.

Hedo has a store on site that is actually pretty good.  There is a good selection of casual clothing and a pretty impressive selection of fetish wear–particularly for women!  They also sell sex toys, lube, cigars, booze and snacks.  The prices aren’t bad and the quality is very good.  We ended up shopping there several times and purchased some very nice outfits for my Queen.  So she was in pretty good shape for most of the themes.  It was exciting to shop for her.  Unfortunately there really wasn’t very much for males to wear.  So we didn’t purchase anything for me, but I had brought some stuff and was able to make do with what I had.  (I started this post on May 7 and thought I had posted it.  Here it is Sept. 30th and I am finally back on my blog–so my apologies are really overdue).

I will return to Hedo in another post–but just an explanation of why I’ve been so long away.  After we returned from Hedo, my Queen told me she had decided to move.  She did ask for my input, but the decision was ultimately hers.  I continued to purge through the months of May and June.  I was also packing.  In that first week of July we sold our home and four days later purchased a new home in a town about an hour away from where we were.  The timelines were very tight and I continued to purge while accelerating my packing.   In early August we moved–the move from hell.  If it could go wrong that day, then you can bet it did.  However we did sleep in our new place.  Since the move, I have been spending long days unpacking, and setting up our new home.  Most days I’m up at 6:00 and working until supper which I eat around 9:00 to 10:00.  Then I watch a little television before crashing.  Finally today I have a moment to breath and think about other things.  The house if finally taking shape.  Eventually it will be a really pleasant place to live.

I promise my next post will be much sooner and I will return to our Hedo honeymoon.  Hopefully I will include some pics too!

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Well, it’s been a while coming, but we finally have our trip booked to Vegas for our Femdom wedding.  I’ve formally proposed and given her an opal ring.  Afterwards, we will be going to Hedonism in Jamaica for a honeymoon! Plans are still evolving, but our wedding officiant is booked and discussions have been taking place.  It is likely that my wife and Queen will be waiting for me at the altar.  We have discussed clothing, but don’t know yet what she will be wearing.  I’m certain it will be sexy and I hope somewhat revealing.  However what she wears is not my decision.  I had a sexy dress picked out, but my Queen didn’t like it.  lol  I will be wearing a collar and leash.  Our officiant has a submissive and that person will lead me into the ceremony and up to my Queen.  There, I will kneel before my Queen and the officiant.  I may be naked or wearing some sort of clothing–that is still to be decided.  I will kiss her feet and possibly the feet of the officiant.  The ceremony will start.  At some point I will be caged.  When we approach the end of the ceremony, I may be asked to kiss my Queen’s ass.  Again that is still in discussion.  Our vows are also being worked on. However as we have a few months, there is no immediate rush to hurry and get them completed.

My Queen is getting much more comfortable in her dominant role.  After much discussion she has decided with my input that punishment will be a part of our dynamic.  I honestly do my best to meet her every need and fulfill all her requests. Still I am not perfect (yet), so I have been spanked  each week for my failings.  While I am glad that my Queen is calling me to task, it is an unpleasant experience.  My Queen makes the punishment hurt! lol  Sunday, She had me uncaged and reading to her.  In the book I was reading the woman was discipling her slave and my Queen decided to get our punishment session out of the way.  As I stood to get into position for my spanking, my erection bobbled around.  I took 130 smacks and Angus was no longer erect when the session was over.  lol   My Queen found that amusing.  Punishment is important to me.  It really helps me to feel submissive–to drive my submissiveness if you like!

What else has changed?  Everyday I get up before my Queen and empty the dishwasher, make her coffee and tea and do some other chores to ease her life.  When she gets up, She can come downstairs and relax with her journal and meditation while enjoying her coffee.  My Queen is a coffee lover.  I make a large cup (26oz) and use a mix of coffees every morning.  We have about 10 different coffees to choose from.  She tells me what she wants the night before.  When she is seated and before she starts her meditation, I approach her and kneel before her.  I ask her what I can do to make her day better.  She will either tell me then and there or will send me a list later in the day.  Failure to prostrate myself before her results in at least 20 smacks so I am doing my best not to forget.

The other day she was wearing a lovely dress.  As we were watching television together, she told me to kneel in front of her.  She pulled up her dress and she wasn’t wearing panties (a huge kink and turn-on for me).

My Queen’s pussy just licked to orgasm!

“I need an orgasm!” she said.  Then she grabbed my head and pulled my face to her pussy.  Who cares what was on TV??  Not me, as I was in heaven. She actually came quickly and then we went back to watching television.  I didn’t even remove my pants or cage.  It’s been 110 days since my last orgasm.  But I have so much fun giving her orgasms that it just doesn’t matter.

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While I haven’t mentioned it in quite some time, we are still planning on having an FLR (Femdom) wedding. This will be a renewal of our vows, but the difference will be that I promise to obey and my Queen promises to accept my slavery and look after me…  We have only talked about it in generalities and no firm plans are in place yet.  We know where we want to go to have the ceremony (Vegas) and I will highlight that venue in a later post.  The beauty of the venue is that the marriage is legal–that is important to me. and that with prior arrangements, almost anything goes.  So I may be nude for some or all of the ceremony.  If any of my ideas are accepted, I might kiss my Queen’s ass or drink her urine as part of the ceremony.  But that is still to be determined.  Another thing that I am hoping to see happen while we are in Vegas is for my Queen to make use of the Cowboys4Angels gigolo service.

We often fantasize about another man or couple when we have sex.  Most often it’s another man and I think it would set our new marriage parameters off in the correct direction with a clear indication that my Queen’s happiness and satisfaction is the most important thing.  I would hope I’d be allowed in the room, but that would also be up to her.  I’m not sure she will go for this to be honest.  She may be content to keep this fantasy just that.  But I’m hoping that I can convince her to explore her pleasure in this way.  If it should happen, I do hope to be allowed to take pictures.  I expect I will be caged for the event so no orgasms will be expected for me.

Why do I want this??  First I really enjoy seeing my Queen experience pleasure.  She loves variety in everything she does–but hasn’t had any variety in the bedroom since meeting me.  We do all sorts of things, but it’s always just me.  I think she would enjoy a new experience.  When we were first dating, she found a pro-Domme and for one of my birthdays, she took me to her dungeon.  The two of them then proceeded to dominate me.  It was such an amazing gift that I’d like to give it back.  It also feeds my submissiveness.  Watching her experience pleasure with another man is very exciting and also a very submissive act.  I further imagine licking her pussy as she’s being fucked–even if we hire a cowboy, this is very unlikely to happen, but then it isn’t about me is it?  I would expect the cowboy to use a condom, but I fantasize that he doesn’t and he comes in and on her.  Then she makes me clean it up.  I clean up my own messes all the time now–just have never done another man’s clean-up.  Again that act is an exciting thought of submissiveness.  So if my Queen cucks me, it feeds my desire to see her pleased and also really feeds my submissive identity.

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This is another post from my recovered files.  To this day, I think about these two people with sadness. And also with gratitude…

I’m not sure when I originally posted it, however here it is.

An Obit

This is an obituary–sort of.  Some time ago I started to follow a man.  He was a widower and lived in New Zealand–even though I didn’t know his location at the time.  He had a lack of confidence in himself sexually and was seeing a therapist to learn how to be better.  I enjoyed his posts–his honesty and his (dare I say it) innocence.  As time went on he introduced me to a neighbour.  She was also a widow and was a young 80 year old.  He told us in his charming way about how his friendship with her gradually became more than that.  We learned about her life and how she had been in a marriage without love, sex or passion.  This man awakened her.  He gave her passion and he gave her love.  He also awoke her sexuality.  They started to blog together!  Reading their posts was so much fun as they grew together and their love blossomed.  It was like reading a “feel good” movie.  Then a drop of darkness.  She started to suffer the onset of dementia.  Over time there was some good news as the dementia wasn’t as serious as they had feared.

Meanwhile they were living life large!  Each was smitten with the other.  I spoke about possibly meeting them in time–hoping that I could get to their lovely country while she was still “together”.  She told me not to wait too long.

Unfortunately I have.  The couple I’m speaking of were known on WordPress as Rex and Naomi.  Naomi had a mishap in May that seemed relatively minor.  She was in the hospital for a short time, but was released and was expected to be fine.  However she passed away shortly thereafter.  I’m grateful to Rex who let me know.  I know how heart broken he was, and he has stopped blogging.

Their story was a great love story.  I was so happy for the two of them.  They discovered each other and had a vibrant sex life despite what some people would say was advanced age!  Naomi showed me the joy of life.  In some respects she was very innocent.  In others she was wise and worldly.  She showed her wonder at experiencing passion and real love after 80 years of life.  I did have correspondence with her and found her to be a very kind woman.  She was gentle and shy.  But she was also very adventurous and willing to try almost anything.  She had a smile that lit up the space around her.  From what I know, she made others feel good.  I had hoped that she and Rex would have several years together, but alas, it was not to be.  I miss Naomi and I miss Rex.

I never met either of them in person, but I did come to know them–and felt like they were my friends.  Life is not always good.  Bad things happen.  But I wanted to say how Naomi and Rex had a positive effect on my life.  I wanted to say that I miss them.  I wanted to say how sad this news made me feel.  Rest in peace Dear Naomi.  Stay Strong Rex!

 

The above post likely was written sometime in 2016. So it is entirely possible that Rex is also no longer with us. Regardless, I still think of the both of them regularly.  Some people just stick with you over time.

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Sometimes we just have to get away.  So we booked a hotel room and travelled to a nearby city to see a play.  The beauty of this is that we leave all kids behind… Despite it being just an overnight trip, we had some high quality time together.  We left just after noon and had an early dinner at an excellent steak house.  Because we were going to be having a metal detector wanded over us and my queen wanted easy access to Angus, she removed my cage before we left. We checked into our hotel which was surprisingly nice and went to the theatre.  We enjoyed the performance before returning to the hotel where we relaxed together before going to sleep.  As I kissed my Queen good night, she decided she wanted an orgasm.  Using my mouth and a vibrator, my Queen had a lovely orgasm and we went to sleep.  In the morning, we played some more and my Queen had another three orgasms.  It was a great time and we both had a fabulous time.  No orgasms for me, but I’m content!

Regardless of who you are, it is always important to make time for each other.  These mini “vacations” help to break things up and keep life interesting and full.  I hope to regularly schedule something similar until we can actually get away for an extended period of time.