I can’t believe it’s been a month since I last posted. I must get better at this. In some ways it’s because I’m frustrated with fixing this blog. Caged Lion has offered to help, and I should take him up on that soon. He is very good with technical things (and has a great blog–Male Chastity Journal–I recommend it highly).
I am very excited by recent changes in our relationship. As mentioned earlier, I discovered Ms. Rika’s books. I’ve read 2.5 of them so far. More importantly, I’ve read the first one to my Queen. Reading that book became a highlight of our week and this week we’ll start another of her books. We’ve had some profound discussions as a result of our reading together. But best of all, we are even more fully invested in our FLR. My Queen found Ms. Rika’s explanations so much better than mine and I admitted to making mistakes along the way. While I was always about pleasing my Queen, something has switched in my brain. And my Queen is learning to embrace her dominance over me. She still has guilt, but whenever she checks, Angus is hard in his cage. That and my obvious love of pleasing her is helping her get over her guilt of demanding things from me.
She has even embraced the cage. This sounds funny for a guy who has been caged for 6-7 years, but I think for most of that time, she was accepting the cage in deference to me. Now she sees the value of the cage and has come to like it on me. This is a huge switch. Her “intent” is different.
I’ve had one orgasm this year. My Queen decided I needed some salad dressing on my salad and told me to masturbate into my food. So on Jan. 29th, I came onto my salad before cleaning my plate. It actually was the first time I had masturbated in years. Of course this was under her watchful eye! lol One of our discussions centered on requiring me to clean up any cum I produced. We discussed how this is exciting to me up until I actually cum. Afterwards this is more difficult for me and she decided she will be much more stringent in making sure I do a good clean up job now. So once the salad was finished, I had to lick the plate clean!
She also used the humbler on me a week ago. Truthfully, she has done a few things to keep me on my toes. Some have been very surprising. Last Sunday, she wanted some attention and desired an orgasm, but she decided to keep me caged. Almost always, she will remove the cage when we play. However on Sunday she kept me caged and I used my mouth, toys and fingers to bring her to three orgasms. I loved it!! I admit that Angus was trying to push through the bars of the cage, but the jailbird is far too strong! lol It was only later that she removed the cage–and that was so she could put the humbler on me.
I’ll try and be more active on here and let you know what’s happening. Stay well!