Historical Reference: In 2018 or 2019 my Queen had an hysterectomy. A bit of manufactured screen was placed in to her. She never fully recovered and I eventually became “pussy free!” Now in our relationship, all PIV has always been at her request and in the manner she desired. I was seldom allowed to orgasm, however at least for the past 2-3 years we haven’t even tried PIV–maybe longer.
So today my Queen had surgery. Tonight she’s resting in hospital–uncomfortable, but looking forward to healing. My Queen really likes penetrative sex. After the initial surgery seven years ago, we allowed time for healing and then tried. I was unable to do much. We had to be in just the right position and I couldn’t fully penetrate her, nor could I really pump. I had to move super slowly. Eventually we just stopped trying. Angus may not be super long, but does have good girth. My previous blog was quite successful before it was unceremoniously cut. Several toy manufacturers had sent me toys to review and one of those toys was a dildo with a motor inside. Now the motor didn’t last long, but the actual dildo had adequate length and a lot less girth than me. So for a while we would use this toy for penetration. I’d use my hands to move it inside her carefully and sometimes use my mouth or a vibrator at the same time. However the pain got progressively worse and the last time I used the toy to penetrate her was last year after our wedding. It just hurt too much. Prior to this surgery today, I couldn’t even put one finger an inch inside her without her having pain.
It is now about 5-6 weeks post surgery. My Queen has healed well and is back to the gym. However there is another problem, so penetrative sex may still be a ways off for us. She has had to use a catheter to pee since the surgery 6 weeks ago. When she came out of the hospital she had a catheter with a bag. After about 7 days, that catheter was removed and she was given “portable” catheters to insert every time she pees. So for the past 5 weeks or so, she must insert a catheter to pee, then remove it and clean it for use the next time. She is now measuring how much she can pee without a catheter and that is a very small amount. So she pees about 100 ml without the catheter and then she will insert the catheter and pee the rest of her urine out. The surgeon wants the numbers but has suggested that he will likely have to do a small surgery to make it easier for her to pee. She will be very happy to see the last of these catheters. She is currently using an hormonal cream on her vagina that requires her to insert a pencil thick tube into her vagina. That is causing her a fair amount of pain–so with these two problems, penetrative sex is likely not in the cards for at least another 4-5 weeks.
I am thinking so many thoughts of love and healing for the two of you, my dear friend. My heart hurts for you ❤️
I’m ok. I worry about her and her healing. She enjoys all aspects of sex, but she really likes penetrative sex. The last 7 years have been hard on her! Her first surgeon was an ass, but this new dude seems to be a good doctor and also a good person. For me, I enjoy oral more than anything. lol So this hasn’t been as hard on me.
Well, thankfully she has a great subbie man to wait on her hand and foot (and vajayjay 😍).
She doesn’t understand why I like to serve her… She considers herself fortunate, but can’t figure on why I don’t care about my own orgasms, or why hers are so important to me. Still she has embraced her power and this lifestyle so understanding doesn’t really matter. lol
Not to compare my brand new relationship to your long-term one, but I am hearing some similar sentiment from my new Dom. He can’t understand why I want to do his laundry, cook special meals, and give him BJs constantly (he’s never had a service submissive). He (obviously) enjoys it but he does feel a bit flabbergasted by it all and wonders what I get out of it. LOL. I’ve tried to articulate how incredibly fulfilling it is for me…I feel complete, whole, and like my true authentic self when I am serving. I LOVE hearing that your Queen has embraced her power!!! You are both so lucky to have found one another ❤️